"I am a little pencil in the hand of a writing God who is sending a love letter to the world"
Thursday, 28 March 2013
Our Royal Identity
As promised, here is the talk I gave at the CCO Women's Night - a reflection on our identity as children of God and heirs to His kingdom, leading up to Good Friday.
There’s a cute saying that I really like, that goes: “I am a princess, not because I have a prince, but because my father is a King.”
What does that mean? Romans 8: 16-17 says, “we are children of God, and if children, then heirs, heirs of God and joint heirs with Christ, if only we suffer with Him so that we may also be glorified with him.” So we are heirs of God and joint heirs with Christ, so we are heirs to the kingdom of heaven, because we are God’s children. Galatians 3:26 says, “for through faith you are all children of God in Christ Jesus.”
What St. Paul told the Romans and Galatians applies to you too, and to every single person in the world. How did we get to be heirs? Is it because we’ve worked our butts off all our life to be a good person so that we could go to heaven? No, it's because this is what we were created for and what Christ has freely given us. We didn’t earn our position as heirs by our own merit, it’s a gift. This is how we get to be heirs, and this is why I get to say I’m a princess. I have a royal daddy, who created me and who loves me with a love I cannot ever hope to fathom because it’s so huge, and because Jesus built the bridge for me so I could claim my royal place as princess if I so choose.
Speaking of princesses, we’re about to watch Tangled, which I’m sure you’ve all seen. As you probably know, Tangled is about a princess named Rapunzel who gets stolen from her parents and hidden in a tower by Mother Gothel, who wants her for her magic hair. Living in the tower, Rapunzel has no idea what the outside world is like, or that she is in fact the princess. But something compels her to leave the tower to find out the truth about the stars, or lanterns, she sees in the sky on her birthday.
In her heart, Rapunzel knows that the lanterns have something to do with her. But it’s a scary thing, to venture out into the world when all she knows is her tower.
Tuesday, 26 March 2013
Tidefall
A short story.
I'm not one hundred percent positive I'm using the word tidefall correctly, but hopefully it's fine.
Please give feedback if you have any! Enjoy!
I'm not one hundred percent positive I'm using the word tidefall correctly, but hopefully it's fine.
Please give feedback if you have any! Enjoy!
Tidefall
When the tide went out, Caleb always ran out
to collect the seashells that remained in its wake. What he really wanted was to find a pearl in
an oyster, so he was delighted when one day he picked up a seashell and a
diamond ring tumbled out into his hand.
“Where did you get this?” his great-aunt gasped when he showed it to her.
“In a seashell, from the tide,” he replied. She took it from him and held it in her
hand. Caleb was surprised to see tears
in her eyes.
“Take it back,” she whispered, thrusting it back into his hands. “It
belongs to the sea.”
~
Alena held on to Ethan’s arm.
“Don’t go,” she begged. “Please don’t
go. Everyone knows the Lake is cursed.”
“Those are just stories to keep trespassers
away,” Ethan reassured her, kissing the top of her long dark hair. “My grandfather was an apprentice at Lac-Ater
House, as was his father before him.” And if it is cursed, he added to
himself, I won’t ever let it stand in the
way of healing you.
“That was before,” Alena
whispered. “Please, Ethan. I can get well, we can find another way!”
Ethan pulled his hand through his
brown locks and frowned.
“How would you get well? I have
already tried everything I could.”
“No. You haven’t. But your heart is set on learning healing
magic, I realize that. But Ethan.” Big blue eyes stared up at Ethan’s brown
ones. “I’m asking you not to go.”
But Ethan was determined to take this
opportunity to go to Lac-Ater House like his grandfather, in order to save Alena’s
life. He knew there was no real curse. Ethan’s
father had avoided following the family tradition because of the rumours of the
curse, and his aunt had tried to go instead but had been rejected because the
Master of Lac-Ater preferred to teach men.
His father had begged him not to go, but from a young age Ethan would
visit his aunt and listen to the longing in her voice as she said,
“There is nothing I would rather do
than learn magic.”
She would tell him all
the stories of Lac-Ater; how The Lake was actually a bay leading out to the
sea, though everyone knew it as a lake for its name – Lac-Ater, the Dark Lake; how
the Master never seemed to grow old no matter how time passed; how many
apprentices, both men and women, used to come to learn magic at Lac-Ater; how the
Master had a lover once, who had drowned in the lake, and how after that,
suddenly no more people ever came to Lac-Ater to learn.
“It’s not actually cursed, though,”
she told him. “That’s just stories to
filter out the applicants. The Master has become stern since the death of his
lover, and wants only the best of the best.
And he only allows men to come now.
Ethan, you come from a line of mages. You are the best of the best.”
So he, too, began to say, like his
aunt, “there is nothing I would rather do than learn magic.”
It became his dream to go to
Lac-Ater, and later, when Alena started dying and they could not figure out the
cause, it became a necessity. So despite her pleas, he set off for Lac-Ater,
leaving her with the promise of his return in the form of a diamond engagement
ring.
The Master of Lac-Ater
house was expecting his new apprentice and welcomed him into large empty rooms
and long corridors that whispered with the echoes of past apprentices. Ethan was the Master’s first apprentice in
years. Magic was a lost art now, and the
Master started Ethan’s lessons with a tiredness that betrayed his age.
“The most important thing
of all,” he told him, pointing out towards the lake, which was down the hill
from the house, “is never to venture out to the Lake. Especially not at tidefall.”
Ethan agreed to avoid the lake, and
concentrated on his lessons with fervour.
His first success happened when the edge of a paper sliced his finger
open and he closed the wound with a single touch.
“Healing magic!” he whispered in awe.
“Ha!” laughed his Master. “That, healing magic? That’s like saying a puff
of air is a hurricane. Healing magic!
That’s a good one!”
But Ethan was not discouraged. His heart filled with the hope of seeing Alena
well again.
The nights, though, were dark and
dreary. He kept dreaming that Alena
would die before he could reach her, and then he would wake in a panic and hear
the sound of faraway singing. At first, Ethan
ignored the singing, but as the nights progressed he felt a growing urge to see
where it came from, so one night after another dream of Alena’s death he found
himself wandering outside in search of the source of the singing.
It led him down right to the edge of
the Lake. He stood there and stared at
the swirling mist coming in from the sea, mesmerized as it drew closer and
closer. The singing grew louder and
carried across the water to him with complete clarity.
“Ethan,” the breeze whispered,
sweeping his dark locks off his forehead.
“I am here,” he whispered back. In the mist he could see the form of a lady,
and she was beckoning to him.
“Come, my love,” she sang. She had Alena’s shape, Alena’s hair, Alena’s
voice.
“Alena!” he choked. He realized now what this meant. He was too
late to save her; she was dead! And her
spirit was here, at Lac-Ater, to be with him.
“Ethan,” she sighed, “come home to
me!”
The legs that led him out into the
water moved of their own accord. It
wasn’t until his head went under that the shock of cold brought him back to his
senses.
I won’t let it stand in the way of healing you! he cried inwardly. The water clutched at him with long icy
fingers, dragging him down, but he focused on the shore the way his master had
taught him to focus, and fought his way back. He fled to the house without looking back.
“I will not let you down,” he
shivered into his blankets after he had changed and dried. But the cold wouldn’t leave him, or the image
of the lady, or the rushing sound of water in his ears – or was that the
singing, far away on the sea, still pounding in his ears?
The image of the lady in the mist was
so distracting that Ethan could no longer focus on his lessons. Finally, he got leave from his Master to
return home for a few days so he could see Alena and prove to himself that she
was still alive.
Silence was the first thing to greet Ethan
as he entered his hometown. Absolute,
awful silence. Not a soul did he see as
he walked down the road to Alena’s house, not even a bird or a butterfly. He started running.
“Alena!” he yelled as he burst in. “Alena!”
There she was, lying on her bed, her
eyes closed and her chest still.
“Alena,” he cried, shaking her. “Wake up.”
Her eyes opened and looked right at
him, but they were not the eyes Ethan knew.
They were cold, empty, lifeless.
He was too late. She was gone.
Ethan started to weep, and he gently
removed the ring from her finger. Then
he remembered the lady on the lake. Alena’s
spirit was at Lac-Ater! He had to go back.
He had to be with her.
Ethan stood up to leave, and felt
something latch itself onto his arm. To
his horror, Alena had sat up and her hand was gripping onto his arm. Her lifeless eyes stared straight at
him. His throat thickened in panic as he
tried to pry himself free.
“Don’t go,” he
recalled her saying before he went to Lac-Ater. “Please don’t go. The Lake is
cursed.”
Ethan tore her stone-cold fingers
from his arm, but she reached for his face and grabbed onto a chunk of his
hair. She pulled his face to hers and
Ethan felt cold, such cold, cold like the water of Lac-Ater Lake, shoot through
his heart. He pushed her from him and
fled.
Lac-Ater was also silent, when he got
back. Ethan could not find the Master in
the house or anywhere on the grounds, and the whispers in the corners were gone. Ethan found a letter addressed to him on the
table, which he opened in a frantic hurry:
Dearest, please come home. I am
getting stronger but I cannot live without you.
Come home to me.
A cry ripped from Ethan’s throat and
he ran down to the Lake, screaming Alena’s name. It was tidefall. When no one answered, he rushed into the water
and let its dark depths envelop him.
~
After Ethan left, I wept bitterly, for I knew in my heart that he was not
coming back. My heart grew weaker
without him, though my health started to improve after a travelling gypsy sold
me a potion and warned me about the dangers of Lac-Ater. I immediately sent Ethan a letter begging him
to come home, and a few days later he did… but this was not the Ethan I
knew. The man who came through my door
that day was utterly, horribly changed.
It was like his soul was missing; his face was closed, his expression
emotionless, and worst of all, his eyes were completely void of life. I started screaming at him, as though by
screaming I could wake him and he would stay with me forever. But I knew he was gone; the lake had already
claimed him. I was powerless as his
fingers, cold as ice, removed the ring he had given me. I held onto his arm in a last desperate
attempt to rouse him, and for a second something sparked in his eyes –
something terrified, pleading, and helpless – but then it was gone. I wept and wailed, but there was a wall
between us. He did not hear my cries. I tried to kiss him, my own tears running
down his face of stone, but I knew there would be nothing I could do to bring
him back to life. I collapsed in grief
when he left, and remained that way for I don’t know how long. It was years before I bid him goodbye and
went on with my life, letting myself be happy again – but never forgetting.
I left my home in my later years and moved to the seaside with my
sister’s daughter and her little boy Caleb.
My heart knew we were close to Lac-Ater, but my mind forgot, so I was
shocked to see a familiar ring in Caleb’s hand one day when he brought it back
from the sea after the tide went out.
“Take it back,” I told him. “It
belongs to the sea.”
I didn’t need to keep the ring to remember him. He remained in my heart, and in the memories
that came in and out with the tide.
Monday, 25 March 2013
Happy Monday!
Start your week with a smile.
I have always loved Mondays. The average person apparently doesn't, though, so Monday seems like a good day to post a weekly inspirational message or just something that will make you smile as you start your week. Here is the first of a weekly tradition on this blog. Happy Monday!
I have always loved Mondays. The average person apparently doesn't, though, so Monday seems like a good day to post a weekly inspirational message or just something that will make you smile as you start your week. Here is the first of a weekly tradition on this blog. Happy Monday!
Thursday, 21 March 2013
Long time no short story!
Hello! I have a new short story, finally! It isn't much more than a monologue, but I'm pretty happy with it. I like the mood of it, and I'm particularly fond of my Canadian artist references. I wanted: a well-known love ballad song appropriate for piano bars, and a singer with a folk-music style appropriate to Abby's personality. I found ones that were Canadian, and bonus - the second is a visual artist too. Also, Gordon Harrison is cool, you should look him up. Also, Friday's Roast Beef House was a real piano bar in Ottawa until not too long ago.
I hope you enjoy this moody monologue as much as I did writing it!
(Oh and disclaimer: characters and situations depicted in this story are entirely fictional.) Except for the artists of course - and the pope, he's real! That's another thing! I joked about writing Pope Francis into my next story but then I took myself up on it. Also, Mr. Seymour is a joke in our class; we are (most of us) writing a character named Seymour M. into our story, named after our professor. I dropped the M because I liked Mr. Seymour better.
(P.S. No joke, I now have our National Anthem stuck in my head. My subconscious is laughing at my desire to be explicitly Canadian in my writing.)
I hope you enjoy this moody monologue as much as I did writing it!
(Oh and disclaimer: characters and situations depicted in this story are entirely fictional.) Except for the artists of course - and the pope, he's real! That's another thing! I joked about writing Pope Francis into my next story but then I took myself up on it. Also, Mr. Seymour is a joke in our class; we are (most of us) writing a character named Seymour M. into our story, named after our professor. I dropped the M because I liked Mr. Seymour better.
(P.S. No joke, I now have our National Anthem stuck in my head. My subconscious is laughing at my desire to be explicitly Canadian in my writing.)
The Perfect Shade of Blue
“The Home of a Broken Artist.”
Wednesday, 13 March 2013
Habemus Papam!!
Today is a very exciting day for the 2.1 billion Catholics all over the world (and my 400 or so practising Catholic friends in my Facebook newsfeed lol) - we have a pope!! Cardinal Jorge Bergoglio was elected pope today and the world is already so in love with this humble, holy, evangelistic Jesuit who is now called Pope Francis. Praise God!!
You can watch his first appearance here, and his first words. So awesome! God bless our new Papa.
Maybe I can try to work him into my next short story ;). I've been on writer's block for a while now and I would really like to write a new one. Popes are inspirational though!
Friday, 8 March 2013
Happy International Women's Day!
I woke up this morning feeling horrified that society thinks abortion is okay and that pro-lifers aren't fighting harder to end this injustice. I dreamt about abortion, though I don't remember what my dream was exactly. Today, International Women's Day, I would like to thank all the women in the world who stand up for their rights, and everyone who defends women from injustice, and remind the world that there are 200 million girls who never had a chance to live the life they deserved to live because of sex-selective abortions. Abortion is violence against women on many levels. Women in crisis pregnancies deserve better options, love, and care than they get with the escape route option that involves the violent death of their unborn child.
This picture is one reason I am anti-abortion. It is a misconception that pro-life people are against women's rights though. I am pro-woman and I support women's rights wholeheartedly! But my rights end where your rights begin. I will not harm other human beings in the name of my rights.
Happy International Women's Day! ;)
Tuesday, 5 March 2013
Marching Forth
Today I turn 22. (Well, yesterday, since it's past midnight.) I love 2 2's beside each other, they look like 2 swans - and if the first 2 was backwards it would look like a heart. (On a pedestal.)
Today, the only day of the year that is also a command, is not only a great day for celebrating birthdays, but also apparently there's a whole bunch of other awesome things you can do. So says this website: how to celebrate March Fourth - made me smile!
I just want to thank everyone who has made my birthday and my life so special; this past few weeks have been a time where I've really been experiencing a lot of love, and today, of course, is one of those days where people especially pour their love upon you. I'm so grateful to all my friends and shout out a huge THANK YOU! And especially thank you Jesus <3
My Commitment to Singlehood Testimony

It was
not very long ago, though, that I would have rejected this idea. A recent emotional attachment to a guy friend
kept me from wanting to commit to singlehood, but now I have been “friend
zoned” and am free to fully embrace the state of being single. And I want to share with you a bit of what
happened to me with this guy friend, because I think my experience can serve to
help other girls who may be struggling with crushes and “unrequited love.” I was blessed enough to experience what I
think was the best-case scenario as far as rejections go, and I am very happy
to be in the “friend zone.” I want to
share my experience in case I can be an example of hope in a world where so
many women allow themselves to get so hurt just from getting “friend zoned.” Anyone who is afraid of getting heartbroken,
don’t be afraid – I promise that what happens to me can happen to you too.
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